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Monday, December 31, 2007

The Big Tree


This is the 'big tree' at the end of Moffit Road in New Castle, Pa. It is a grand,
majestic tree, spreading it's broad, proud limbs in every direction. I eagerly anticipate walking to the 'big tree' when I'm visiting my in laws.

It is a landmark that has been my walking focus for many years. I first walked to it with my father in law, but as the years have passed, Dad became a bit slower, and now has finally retired from hiking. Now I go alone, but once in a great while someone will join me. Last week my daughter Skye came along.

I've seen the 'big tree' in the summer and winter, in the snow and the rain, surrounded by fog and under warm sun, richly covered with green foliage, and looking quite elegant displaying graceful bare branches.

I'm not sure what type of tree it is, but it's lovely. Cornfields are nearby. Rolling hills surround it. Clouds overhead cover it like a canopy. Moffit Road leads towards or away from it, depending on your perspective. A few people live along the road, in sight of the great giant. It is a splendid tree, and it makes my walk an inspired one.

"I think that I shall never see
A poem as lovely as a tree...
A tree that looks at God all day,
And lifts her leafy arms to pray..." Joyce Kilmer

I'll always hear Dad's voice asking, "Are you walking to the 'big tree' today? Wish he could still come along.....I think he is in spirit:)
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Saturday, December 22, 2007

More December Notes

Today Keith, Skye, Wyatt & I rode/walked/ran in the surrounding neighborhood. A nice morning temperature-wise, although overcast, to get some exercise. Wyatt thought he was in Heaven being outside and with ALL of US:) Keith's working on his biking stamina, so Skye didn't get her normal workout. I did get in some running whenever Wyatt decided to chase the bikers:)

Our Small Group had their annual Christmas Dinner last night. We departed from our Progressive Dinner style that we've done in the past and met at Biaggi's, an Italian restaurant, in Cary. It was excellent. Even Keith was able to enjoy a meal of pasta and Italian sausage. Afterwards the group traveled to the historic Apex home of the Stern's, where we tasted various desserts and drank delicious hot coffee. Their home is always a feast for the eyes, as Teresa has a flair for decoration like no other person I know of! Must say visiting together was the sweetest part of the entire night:)

Today I'm baking sweet bread, something I love to do when I have the time, and yeast bread is such fun to make, and eat:) These days I usually only bake bread at Christmas (Swedish Tea Rings), and it's part of the holiday tradition for me. Sugar and gingerbread cookies used to be a top priority when the kids were small, but we don't have the time to make/decorate them anymore, and don't need to eat many of them. But Skye and I have found an especially good gingerbread recipe this year so we've baked a few batches---yum:)

Our sweet and precious neighbor Christa dropped by early afternoon and brought some goodies:) Such a sweetheart:) She and her family, Todd, Gina & Ali, attend the same church as we do.

Our 'Self' neighbors left some wonderful sugar cookies and a gift card to their son Mason's music site. I must say the cookies were very good, plus they were packaged like large buttons--so neat! How sweet of them:) The music I'll leave to Skye:)

A blessing to have neighbors dropping off goodies and saying I care:)

A dear old friend called today and asked if we could come to their house tonight. As much as I'd LOVE to see her & her family, I'm really tired in many ways and am not sure if I'm up to a night out across town.....have to decide, but maybe a nap would help my outlook:)

Skye got her Appalachian deposit in the mail today. How things will have changed by this time next year---we'll be looking forward to her coming home from Boone. Not sure if I'm ready for that, but I know she is:)

Finished reading the book "same different as me". It is POWERFUL!!! A true story that shows how much difference we make when we simply love the unlovable. I challenge you to read it in 2008.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Oh how sweet the sound:)

Sweet gentle rain is falling in Apex tonight:)
What a peaceful sound.
What a blessing after not hearing it for far too long.
It's chilly & damp, and Christmas lights glisten through the droplets.
I'll sleep contentedly hearing rain tapping & sliding down the window pane while I travel from one dream to another....:)
My bed is calling!
Goodnight moon (sleeping behind the clouds):)

Saturday, December 08, 2007

December notes

I've been in warp speed since Thanksgiving, so sorry about the blog updates & "ponderings" not being consistent.

Did some Christmas baking today, and attempted to decorate the tree---discovering half dead light strands put an end to getting that project done:(

Our grand puppy Poppy arrived yesterday & haven't even had time to see her--that's bad:( Seth & Kelley probably think I'm not excited. At least Skye & "buds" have been over & taken photos of the cute Westie baby girl.

Need a longer weekend. I love to wrap gifts but can't seem to fit it in, between cleaning & all the house stuff.

Would LOVE to have blown/raked leaves today; a perfect day to be outside here! High of 68 degrees:) Didn't have time:(

Keith's trying to get our Christmas letter designed & typed, and I'm even thinking it may not be a priority to get one out this year.

Have found Holiday music online this year, so am listening to some nice Christmas streaming music without commercials! And from a person who LOVES Christmas music, the radio stations are playing the same songs over & over--not good.

Have missed traveling to Pinehurst & seeing my mama:(

Have been reading "The Screwtape Letters", finally! Makes me think!
Also beginning to read "same kind of different as me", by Hall & Moore.

Celebrated with longtime friends an old friend's college graduation tonight. He's in his 60's so this is something he's worked on (& off) for years. What an achievement!! Hurray for Ralph!

Skye will wind up her next to last semester at Wake Tech this coming week. She has exams & papers to write. And hopes to get "an invitation" from Appalachian State in the coming weeks.

Christmas will be here in 2 weeks & 3 days--whoa!!

Friday, November 30, 2007

Goodbye November

Ponderings:
Wow, does it feel like November was a blur?
Seems Thanksgiving came and went in the blink of an eye!

But do remember how hot October was, and must say November has been more gracious weather-wise with seasonal temps.

Keith's sister, mom, nephew, and 'our Seth' became older in November.

I've been in "Christmas World" since Halloween, so I'm feeling like it's crunch time as I look around the corner at December 1st!

Tomorrow is the Apex Christmas Parade at 5pm--my favorite parade. And afterwards we are celebrating Seth's birthday:) How nice, especially since Three is coming to watch the parade with us:)!!

Sunday is our church women's Christmas Tea, and the Historical Homes Tour in Apex---which will I do?

Monday is Seth & Kelley's 2nd anniversary. What fun to remember their gorgeous wedding day!!

And the Season to be merry is in full swing:)

Sunday, November 25, 2007

It's the most wonderful time of the year:)

A month from today will be Christmas.
Now if I wanted to scare myself I'd list everything I need to do in 4 weeks' time.
So I won't do that:)
I love the Christmas Season.
I love that Jesus' name is everywhere.

People have purpose, and pondering what other people want/need gets our minds off ourselves---for a few seconds anyway:)
This year we have more time between Thanksgiving & Christmas since Thanksgiving comes early, but, whoa, that time will fly by!

Having parties, attending parties, baking cookies & breads & cakes & candies, etc., decorating the whole house inside & out, burning scented candles, buying & wrapping gifts, giving gifts, eating holiday goodies, drinking Russian tea & eggnog & cocoa, etc., going to Christmas pageants & concerts, enjoying Christmas Teas, singing Christmas songs, all are things I love & savor & relish:)

I guess most of us can only handle all those wonderful things for 30 days--a birthday party for 30 days:)
O yeah:)
Joy To The World!
O Come Let Us Adore Him!

Monday, November 19, 2007

GLORY

Just got in from walking at Lake Pine,
walking through glorious color,
through God's artwork.
GLORY is shining!

If you haven't noticed the colors of the trees this fall,
stop,
look!
Admire the Creator's palette!

The golds, the burgundys,
the bright yellows,
the bright greens,
the corals,
the peach,
the burnt siennas,
the rust,
the bright reds,
dark reds,
the oranges,
almost every tree is brushed with brilliant hues.

God is before us painting His Splendor for all to see!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Update on Weight Watcher progress

I must say HATS OFF to Skye for losing 40 lbs. on Weight Watcher's as of Monday night!
Hurray for persevering, girl!!!
She hasn't reached her "lifetime" goal yet, but is working hard to make it happen. I think a big boost for her is that she exercises at the Y a number of times each week.
I am slower. I've been on a plateau close to losing 30 lbs. for months. I walk/run every morning, but fight evening snacking:(
Thanksgiving and Christmas are big hurdles ahead....whoa.
Do make us accountable & continue to be our encouragers:)

Saturday, November 10, 2007

For Marcia

Marcia, hello:)
I re-read my post about your mom Sarah Black back in May, little knowing when I wrote it I'd be back at the same cemetery burying my own Mama by October:(
Hoping your brothers and dad are coping, and have some comfort.

brenda@jamawkinaw.com

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Tis the Season

I was listening to the 102.9 Beatles' hour this morning, and afterwards, "behold", Christmas music began playing! I'm a die-hard Christmas music fan, so this made my day!!
(For those of you who think it's too early, please close your ears:))

At work, at the 'Card' shop, we are not allowed to play music anymore, other than snippets of the Cd's we sell, because of copyright laws:( (Our company would have to pay a yearly royalty fee for each store they own) To me this is an example of laws being taken to the extreme. All the sales associates miss it, and customers miss out on one of joyful and uplifting parts of the Christmas season.

So I will tune in to 102.9 and listen to my iPod to get my holiday inspiration, and hope we get to hear beautiful Christmas music in public somewhere this time of year. Keep your ears open!

Friday, November 02, 2007

On The Job 12-5pm

Another day at the office--whew!
Checked in at the store at noon, things were hustling & bustling; grabbed my purple apron.
Headed out to Lowe's to buy Christmas garland and Christmas lights.
Got out the hammer and nails and wire, loaded them into my apron, and toted the tall ladder out from the "catacombs" into the store to hang the garland from a shelf on each side of the shop. The garland was pretty, pretty:)
Next, put the tree together and fluffed it up and out:)
Placed it in the front of the store and began putting on the mini white lights.
Needed more lights so left again to buy two more boxes.
Lights on, snowflake tree topper on and blinking; now for the ornaments:)
Hang various and sundry cute Hallmark ornaments:)
A pretty, brightly lit little tree, decorated for the Holiday Open House at Hallmark--a happy tree:)
Whoa, what a job!!!
Luv it:)

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Memories of a NC Fire

Years ago, eons ago, the Sandhills farming community of Roseland, where I grew up, had a devastating fire. It was in April of 1963, I believe, and my baby brother was tiny enough to be in diapers. The reason I remember that is because we left our house so quickly we didn't even grab extra diapers:( Of course I was twelve then and wouldn't have been thinking too clearly!

And my mama was away, had been to Raleigh with my Grandma Blue, for a recognition dinner in honor of women nominated as N. C. Mother of the Year, of which my Grandma was one--now that was pretty neat:) And my daddy was working second shift at the textile mill in Aberdeen.

We had an older couple sitting with us, the Throwers, who panicked when they heard about the fire, so they packed us into their car and figured they'd "skedaddle" to their house to save what they could.

Amazingly my daddy appeared before the Throwers pulled out of the driveway and he began throwing our bikes and whatever else he could think of, or reach, into the newly plowed field beside the house. (The mill had let folks go home to save what they could) He decided to stay with our house and hose it down until the danger had passed.

So off we went, stopping at the Throwers, heading from one neighbor's house to another, till we found a neighbor's home where folks were congregating and figuring out what to do--my friend Kay's house, about 8 miles away, in Narrow Ridge.

As the evening wore on, my mama was experiencing great distress trying to make her way home. There were roadblocks set up to keep everyone out of harm's way. She had a dickens of a time getting through, especially since the smoke was pretty bad, but "nobody can stop a mama when she's looking for her family"! Daddy must have told her we set off with the Throwers, but where did we go?! She had no idea. I guess she drove and asked around, eventually figuring it out:) Whew!

By nightfall we heard on TV that a chainsaw spark had ignited the fire and it had spread over acres and acres of dry land. I was intrigued that we were watching our community on TV getting updates about us and our area!

No one lost their life, and few buildings were burned due to folks protecting their barns, outbuildings and homes, by keeping them doused with water, but it was a scary time. I remember going back to our house late that night seeing tiny sparks, like candles, all through the woods. Our dear minister was standing in the driveway with my daddy. What a sight:)
Soot stayed in our window sills for years....

The saddest part to me was that Roseland never looked the same till a few years ago....40+ years later:(

And for my other fire story, another time......

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

A blessed day!

Did I hear the patter of raindrops today?
Whoa!
YES!
The mercy of rain falling:)
Sweet:)
People dancing & twirling in the dusty, dry streets.
Water swishing, sloshing around, washing the pavement, soaking into the cracked ground.
Precious, Heaven-sent, rain giving a drink to the lakes & streams.
Pouring over all things.
Do we appreciate heavy rain clouds rolling in & camping above us?
Without a doubt!
We are a needy people facing water rationing!

We are a people that think we are self-sufficient.
But God reminds us now and then that He alone is Sovereign.
We need His mercy in all things.
And only He sends the glorious rain.
And, in His time.


I savor it. And it blesses my heart, this peaceful rain.

Friday, October 19, 2007

NC Fair October 18th, 2007 Report

Hot.
Humid.
Sweltering.
Thirsty!
No air, few fans.
Draining:(
Short rides.
Scary short rides:(
Had to have help off a ride or two:( Not too graceful, but fun riding with Skye:)!
Much is the same as every year, especially the Village of Yesteryear--need some new crafts/crafters:(
Disagreed with the judges about most of the artwork ribbon awards (who are the judges?!), but impressed with the entries:)
Good Greek food:)
More food booths than ever!
Chickens were as feisty & proud as ever:)
Pretty cows:)
Neat pottery, especially Don Hudson's pieces glazed in a pumpkin yellow--wow:)
Good people-watching.
Strange people to watch:)!
All in all, an experience:)

Thank goodness for home & air conditioning!!!!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

The Fair

Tomorrow Keith and I plan to go to the NC State Fair.
I love it!
Usually the weather is cooler, but not this record setting dry warm year--ugh:( Still, I'm ready for some light and breezy, carefree, time seeing the sights at the Raleigh Fairgrounds.
It's a festive place, noisy with people, laughter, rides, games, more people, and eating.

I especially enjoy the animals and my favorite exhibit is the Poultry building. Lots of crowing and prancing about. Truly a strutting kind of atmosphere:) The turkeys are so homely I feel sorry for them, but there are some handsome roosters trying to impress by a "cock a doodle do", and many pretty hens preening.

Another exhibit I love is the circular Village of Yesteryear, where various artisans display and sell their wares, often working at their craft as people pass by. All are inspiring to me.

My third favorite place is the Kerr Scott building where artwork is shown, from elementary school to professionals.....amazingly all situated in the same area. Whoa, what a variety of photos and paintings! A "feast for the eyes", as well as "fodder for critiquing"---I just have to voice my opinions:)

I will update you on how it goes...
I'm yearning for a 'footloose' kind of day, a happy kind of atmosphere, soaking in the festivities, here in mid October.
(FYI did you know that cotton candy is only 3 Weight Watcher points--not bad!)

Afraid the dust may be plentiful, but not enough to dampen the Fair crowd spirit!

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Tears

As I sat beside my mama over the last ten days, I searched for a poem or a Bible verse for her funeral service.
Towards the end, as I was reading to her, one poem really stood out to me that I thought would be perfect for Mama's service.

And, I say this with much fear and trembling, now and then I felt like it was for me too. But I rejected that because, really, what a selfish thought.

Then the notion that it was for me would return....and finally I realized it was a 'God whisper' telling me how much He loves me. Whoa, that's a powerful, mind-boggling moment! A tearful, knee-melting, awesome, moment! A revelation that He, in the midst of my saying goodbye to my mama, the GREAT I AM, is nudging me to let me know He cares for me, weeps with me, that He lavishes me with the deepest tenderness there can be.....
If we only listen.

And how appropriate when my greatest Earthly supporter and encourager was preparing to leave.....

Oh, how sweet.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Glory

Today was the joyous Heavenly Homecoming of my mama, Flora Catherene Blue Robeson.
I shall miss her beyond measure.


I Shall Not Pass This Way Again

I shall not pass this way again-
Although it bordered be with flowers-
Although I rest in fragrant bowers,
And hear the singing
Of song birds winging
To highest heaven their gladsome flight;
Though moons are full and stars are bright,
And winds and waves are softly sighing,
While leafy trees make low replying;
Though voices clear in joyous strain
Repeat a jubilant refrain;
Though rising suns their radiance throw
On summer's green and winter's snow,
In such rare splendor that my heart
Would ache from scenes like these to part;
Though beauties heighten,
And life-lights brighten,
And joys proceed from every pain,-
I shall not pass this way again-

Then let me pluck the flowers that blow,
and let me listen as I go
To music rare
That fills the air:
And let hereafter
Songs and laughter
Fill every pause along the way;
And to my spirit let me say:
"O soul, be happy; soon 'tis trod,
The path made thus for thee by God.
Be happy thou, and bless His Name
By whom such marvelous beauty came."
And let no chance by me be lost
To kindness show at any cost.
I shall not pass this way again;

Then let me now relieve some pain,
Remove some barrier from the road,
Or brighten some one's heavy load;
A helping hand to this one lend,
Then turn some other to befriend.

O God, forgive
That now I live
To bless the weary ones that yearn
For help and comfort every day,-
For there be such along the way.
O God, forgive that I have seen
The beauty only, have not been
Awake to sorrow such as this;
That I have drunk the cup of bliss
Remembering not that those there be
Who drinks the dregs of misery.

I love the beauty of the scene,
Would roam again o'er fields so green;
But since I may not, let me spend
My strength for others to the end,-
For those who tread on rock and stone,
and bear their burdens all alone,
Who loiter not in leafy bowers,
Nor hear the birds nor pluck the flowers.
A larger kindness give to me,
A deeper love and sympathy;
Then, O, one day
May someone say-
Remembering a lessened pain-
"Would she could pass this way again."

Eva Rose York

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Catherene Blue Robeson

Since last Thursday I've been sharing a vigil beside my mama here at Moore Regional Hospital as her Earthly body is shed and she is re-born in Heaven. A blood clot has fell her after all else has not. (My 2 brothers and my sister and I take turns spending the night and sitting with her) She is a strong woman of faith and her heart is strong. Last Friday morning til Sunday she labored hard to breathe, but has settled into an overall peaceful sleep since.

As a Stephen Minister it is such a blessing to be the recepiant of many kindnesses and much tender care. Family has slipped in and out to say goodbye, neighbors of my sister and brother drop in to express their concern, sweet phone calls/messages from my friends lighten my day, nurses go beyond the call of duty, all goodness that is precious and sweet.

Sometimes I find I need a break from caring visitors, so the Lord provides that as well. (I tend to get cranky from tiredness, the waiting, and too much going on that might agitate Mama)

I confess I have wanted the Lord to take her home quickly, have prayed that prayer more than once lately, am quite convicted in the last day or two that His timing is perfect and His plan is the best plan. So, I'm trying to wait on Him to comfort Mama and to work out His plan for her.

Before closing I must say a few thing about my mama. She has been such an amazing woman and a powerful influence on all of us children. She has been a stalwart believer in God, family, education, and owning/being a good steward of land. She has loved poetry and has been impressive in her ability to recite poetry even in the dark night of Alzheimer's. She loved to read, to write, to quilt, to sew, to garden, to look after her hens when she had chickens, loved her cats, loved to sit with her mama and 5 brothers and discuss who was kin to who, and what were they doing, etc.

She dreamed of college but could not afford it so urged me to get my degree. Her desire was to go to art school but wasn't able to do that, therefore she instilled in me a love for art. She became a beautician, then later worked in the Aberdeen Post Office. She taught Sunday School and was excellent at it. She was president of the church women's group numerous times and enjoyed doing that.
One of her great loves was her home church, Cypress, and always looked forward to Homecomings, the Harvest Sales, and reunions there. She will be buried in the Cypress graveyard besides my daddy and near most of her beloved family, but she will not dwell there, and neither does my daddy, praise God. They dwell in Paradise, where she will join them:)

"Time keeps on slipping, slipping, slipping into the future."

Friday, September 28, 2007

Cotton Cloudiness & Shades Of Gray

Have you ever spent a day feeling like you ate cotton and you're stumbling around in a haze, your brain doesn't work clearly, and you feel like a truck ran over you? Now I'm not a drinker, but maybe a hang-over gives you the same feeling:(
This "fogginess" comes after spending the night camping in a hospital room where "the light is always on".

My dear mama is struggling to survive a fall resulting in a bleed in her brain. Her chances are 50/50 at this point. Her life will change a 100%. She will never go back to Carolina House where she has resided for 4 & 1/2 years (& was treated well), a place where many people cared for her. The next stage, nursing care, will most likely begin Monday.
I pray this season will be one of less frustration for her, that she will not suffer with bits and pieces of memory that sometimes brought her to tears to think her mama wouldn't let her come home (this from a letter she wrote a few years ago to her mama pleading to be allowed to return home, asking forgiveness for whatever she had done wrong) or that her brothers had died and no one told her:( Hopefully the future will be more peaceful.

She has been sleeping contentedly, and has not been agitated during this crisis. My sister sat and sang to her today and prayed with her. How precious is that:) My brother is pitching his "tent" with Mama tonight, then again Sunday evening, and I'll get another turn to stay Saturday evening.

The nurses are as kind and caring as can be--such a soothing balm during a difficult time:) I also have a dear co-worker who has already offered to work for me Monday if necessary. Each act of kindness, each prayer, and each email of caring/thoughtfulness is a sweet, sweet gift.

And the cloudiness & shades of gray will gradually disappear, and we will see through a dark mirror clearly.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Whoa

I'm a little late to be posting this, but must say HALLELUJAH for the rain last Friday and the cooler fall tinged weather!
Praise God for His mercy on us here in Central NC:)
I feel a weight has lifted:)
We desperately need more rain, but what a sweet purifying of the air and the earth for a brief time, and for my peaceful refreshing wash within!
So sweet!

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Horse movies

I'm not sure why but I am a sucker for a horse movie.
I must say that there are at least 4 horse films that rank in my top 10 favorite movies.

Keith & I just finished watching "Dreamer", with Kurt Russell, Elisabeth Shue, & Dakota Fanning. Sonador is a red filly who is injured and threatened to be 'put down', but finds her advocate/redeemer in a young girl named Cale. Sonador means "Dreamer" in Spanish. A sweet story, surprisingly well made & acted, full of heart.

"The Horse Whisperer", "Wild Hearts Can't Be Broken", and "Seabiscuit" are my other favorites. All beautifully written & filmed, "Seabiscuit" & "Wild Hearts", like "Dreamer", are based on true events.
I recommend all of them!

Why are I drawn to horse stories?
Maybe because I grew up with a red mule?
Maybe because I love animals?
"Red" worked around our farm, and I think I figured mules/horses are a lot like large dogs (I love dogs, and cats and birds). As I grew older it broke my heart when my daddy sold Red. (Money must have gotten tight) And to make matters worse, Red ran away from his new owner, a neighbor, and found his way back home, just for my daddy to turn around and send him right back:( Whoa:(
That took me a while to get over--or, maybe....I'm not over it?

I've never yearned for the responsibility of owning/caring for a horse, but love riding when I get a chance (which isn't often), enjoy watching horses romping and grazing in a pasture. I think they're elegant, graceful, majestic animals, with beautiful liquid eyes that melt my heart:)

Who knows, maybe my love affair began with Roy's Trigger?
Not sure, but....
Happy Trails!

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Sunday ponderings

Well, googa mooga!
I am tickled to say this morning was blessedly cool!
So far September is a huge improvement over that miserable August!

Visited my mama this sunny Sunday afternoon, with Keith along. Had a sweet time with her. She was in a good mood & laughed often. She told Keith I was her cousin:) That's bittersweet, but with dementia you take what is good as a gift and go with it. She will turn 86 Friday.

Keith & I spent last week in Pa. visiting his parents. Wish we lived closer to them. I really enjoy their company. Keith's dad will celebrate his 87th birthday Sept. 13th and his mom will turn 85 in November.
A sad, sad note: we are convinced Dad is in the early of Alzheimer's:( Keith's sister & her husband are trying hard to help them. They have generously offered to build on an addition to their home nearby. The problem? Dad refuses, clueless as to what the future holds for him & how hard things are for Mom. (Mom suffers with arthritis and her mobility is quite limited)
Growing old is difficult enough for parents, but for children who desire the best for them, it's extremely stressful when sound reasoning is not involved:(

My mini R&R is coming to a screeching halt tomorrow morning at 9am:( I enjoy my job, but often wonder if I want to continue working 3 to 4 days a week for the next few years.

We have 3 wedding invitations for September! Whoa! And a 60th birthday cook-out & a 50th birthday square dance! And my dear friend Lorraine & I begin a 4 week Pastels class Sept. 12th:)
Fun, fun, fun:)

Saturday, September 01, 2007

September

Ah! September has arrived:)! Whew! I thought it'd never get here!!

I am weary to the bone of August 2007. I say good riddance to it's relentless heat and merciless dry weather that has drained us of strength and energy:( It has worn me out!
We have had no relief from our drought here. Dying trees continue to shed their leaves as they bend toward the ground, wilting in surrender.
I LOVE rain, as you may know, and I feel about as deprived as the foliage:( I am wilting inside, 'tolerating' each day's weather offering, while praying for God's mercy.

Surely September ushers in hope that cool air will arrive eventually and rainy days along with it?

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

August 2007

Parched
dry
leaves falling from droopy, thirsty trees
rock hard ground
dead grass
little mowing
hot
very hot, like an oven
sweaty
dry creek beds
breezes scarce
conserving electricity
walking/running before 7am
hot
hiding indoors beside air vents
eating ice cream, often:)
no energy
wearing lightweight clothes
parking the car as close to a tree as possible
escaping to the mountains
escaping to the beach
escaping!
covering the car's windshield with a sun shield
evening's warm as toast
oppressive summer
swimming
flip-flops
sandals
dry
hot
dogs panting
thunderstorms that pass around us
hoping for a tropical storm to brush by!
Hoping....

Sunday, August 12, 2007

A learning experience!

This past week I haven't written a thing here, hardly answered emails, and basically have been treading water!

I've been "pretending" to be manager at "The Card Store":) Our real manager is on a well deserved vacation in the mts. of Wy., hiking and camping with her son & his wife, and her dear hubby:) It's far, far away from our sultry, parched, August summer here in Apex, and far, far removed from any responsibilities of her Store here in Apex:)

After walking in her shoes for a week, or at least trying, I've learned more than I ever thought I could learn:)) I've asked 100's of questions and everyone has been helpful & understanding, especially the girls I work with day in and day out:) Bless their hearts!

I have 3 & 1/2 days left to organize the paperwork/computer spread sheets/balance the deposits, 3 & 1/2 days to help The Store run smoothly and encourage my fellow workers, 3 & 1/2 days to help customers with special needs.

I can't appreciate my dear manager more! She's has a calling and does it seemingly without effort and with charm and grace. What a blessing she is to so many:) Thank you, Yvonne:) Here's hoping you are refreshed, renewed, and recharged when you return!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

A trip of remembrance

This morning I stood in a sandy graveyard covered with spotty patches of grass, and the normal N.C. pine trees in the distance, seeing few familiar faces and wondering if I made the right decision to travel 2 hours away on my day off. My brother had met me at the Bojangles in Lillington at 9am and he brought the directions to the country cemetery outside of Bladenboro.

Our cousin Graham died Sunday of a heart attack. He was 56 years old. Mark and I have probably seen him less than ten times in his adult life, so our memories of him go back to our childhood. He was the youngest of four sons born to our daddy's youngest brother J.E. Uncle J.E. and Aunt Nona and the boys lived with our granddaddy in a big, unpainted, rambling house surrounded by moss-covered trees, a magical place to us.

Graham was a special kid. I'm not sure we children ever heard the words mentally handicapped, but he fell into that category. His brothers and mama watched over him, protected him (Uncle J.E. worked in construction and was away from home often), and we never thought of Graham as being different. He certainly didn't believe he was:)

Today we heard how, as an adult, Graham ministered to so many people. Graham loved everyone:) He was loved in return. He worked with a group in Elizabethtown comprised of special people and they came to honor their friend whom they loved. He was loved by his church family. He loved God. He rang the church bell every Sunday morning. He was an usher. He loved his church family and was concerned for every person.

He loved Power Rangers and Transformers as well:) And I believe Graham was a super hero to his mama, his brothers, and all those who cared for him.

I came away knowing it was worth hearing how well Graham lived; encouraging, comforting words, powerful words.

Loving others, loving God, and being loved, are the highest tributes to be said about a person's life, aren't they?

Monday, July 30, 2007

Report on the girls' trip

Well, well, our "girl" time in the NC mountains is sadly over and I must say, for me, it was a fine trip:) Two 20 year olds traveling with a mom is a rare thing, and they were enjoyable to be around and great fun:)

Thursday:
The Appalachian State University tour scheduled in the early afternoon was a good one. We arrived in Boone with just enough time to grab a bite at Subway and meet the tour group. Led by Emma Rice of Fayetteville, the tour really sold the school to Skye and me:) The setting's a pretty mountainside campus with a central area of open lawn edged by trees, surrounded by brick classrooms and dorms. A rocky stream flows through the lower south side. The school is located right in the heart of this small town of 16,000 people, circled by the Blue Ridge mountains:)
Lora, Skye's dear friend, was such a sport to traipse along with us (she's an ECU student) as we low-landers did a little huffing and puffing up countless steps:)

Boone is full of unique shops and good restaurants. After the tour we ate an early supper at McAdoo's where you can order from about 100 types of sandwiches:) Later Skye & Lora enjoyed checking out the vintage clothing stores while I looked at the consignment shops filled with jewelry and pottery and Mast General Store.
Then we headed North to West Jefferson where the A.'s cabin is located. Mr. Star, the black cat, was waiting for us at the top of the stairway:) With his scratchy meow, he purred and rubbed our legs as if we were old friends:) We unloaded our stuff and settled in, watching the movie Rent, TV and giving Mr. Star lots of TLC:)

Friday:
Decided to drive the Blue Ridge Parkway from West Jefferson to Blowing Rock after breakfast at the cabin. It took at least an hour and a half to reach Blowing Rock via the Parkway. One of the reasons; we stopped at the Cascades trail head and hiked to the falls. It was a cool morning, perfect weather to get some exercise.

Blowing Rock was SO BUSY we eventually parked, had a delicious lunch at a "home cooking" kind of place, then left main street to see an old tourist attraction, the "blowing rock". The girls loved it. Very simple and the admission price is cheap; the winds blow up the mountain and are said to blow things back at you if you throw them out over the rock. There's an Indian legend too, but we won't go there on this blog:)

Skye wanted to get an App. t-shirt so we headed back to Boone, which only took 20 minutes via US 321:) We walked back onto campus, toured the bookstore, made a few purchases, then walked back to the shopping area to look a little more.

Finally we were more than ready to strike out for the cabin for the night. On our way we stopped at St. Mary's Episcopal Church, one of three tiny churches in the Jefferson area where Ben Long's beautiful fresco's are displayed; always awe inspiring to me!
After grabbing supper at Taco Bell we arrived at our sweet hide-away. Lora sacked out pretty early, probably with Mr. Star in her lap:) Skye & I watched some TV then turned in fairly early too.

Saturday:
After eating, showering, cleaning a bit and packing, we fed and said good-bye to Mr. Star, locked up the West Jefferson cabin, and began driving towards Asheville. It's always sad for me to leave that peaceful place--a serene abode.

Skye drove till we got to Asheville, then I took over with a little fear and trepidation. I'm not familiar with the town and it's much bigger than Boone. But I had checked out the maps, Skye wanted to eat at the original Mellow Mushroom and see downtown, so off we went. Well, unknown to us "Bele Chere" festival was in full swing. Streets were blocked off and there were folks EVERYWHERE! But, we asked where to go and where to park and it worked out great:)

The Mellow Mushroom was close by and after looking at all the people and food booths and kids' booths and a few pottery/jewelry/art booths, we decided to eat a mid-afternoon lunch/dinner. Thank goodness we did. It's not a fast food place, the people were very interesting to watch, there were LOTS of people, and by the time we were served and ate, it was getting late. The pizza and humus/pita bread were wonderful--yum!!

After finding out way out of the fair area, we struck out for the Folk Craft Center right off the Parkway and US 70, just a few miles from downtown. We stayed at the neat Appalachian crafts guild center for about an hour. (I admit I've been there a few times & really enjoy it:))It was quite calm and cool after being in the throng of Bele Chere:)

We checked into our motel in Black Mt., were tickled to find each room had Internet access, checked emails and vegged for a few hours, then drove a few blocks into the tiny town to a coffee shop, The Dripolator. We got some coffee and drinks, Lora snacked on an apple, and Skye & I shared a brownie:) Great coffee!

Sunday:
We slept late, after Lora and I were rudely awakened by the alarm clock at 6:30am, obviously set by the previous "tenant"! Got up, got ready, checked out by 10:30 and hit the road. We had wanted to try sweet potato pancakes at Tupelo's in Asheville, but the festival made that almost impossible, so we checked out a place in Black Mt. and it was closed:(! So we ended up at Cracker Barrel off US 40 on the West side of Asheville. We three love Cracker Barrel and it was tasty as usual:)

For our final few hours before traveling East and home, we opted to return to Black Mt. and checked out all the artsy shops that were closed the night before and Sunday morning. Fun:)
I found Christmas gifts and birthday gifts:)

Lora drove from Black Mt. to Winston Salem, then I drove to 751, and Skye finished the trip:) We were home by 7pm.

It was four days of no deadlines, the girls chose what to do each day, and the weather cooperated the majority of the time--it only rained once while were were shopping and once after we were snuggled in at the cabin. Skye and Lora's only regret was not getting to canoe or go tubing, but it was a little chilly/rainy for those activities this trip. I know Skye enjoyed seeing the towns of Boone and Asheville as well as taking the campus tour.

I'd do the trip again in a heartbeat:)
Bless you, Skye and Lora, for sharing a sweet, precious time!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

A Girls' Weekend

Thursday morning Skye, her friend Lora, and I are heading to Boone, NC, for a few nights, then on to Asheville for a short visit. The primary goal of the trip is to tour Appalachian State University campus. The tour is scheduled for Thursday afternoon at 1:30. Skye has decided she wants to attend there Fall 2008 after graduating from Wake Tech.

We're planning to stay Thursday & Friday night at a friend's cabin near West Jefferson. It's a cozy comfy place, located down a winding unpaved road, perched on the side of a mountain and overlooking the New River:) A black cat Star is our host and always greets his guests. It'll be so good to see him again:)

Saturday we plan to travel to Asheville, scout out the area, spend that night in nearby in Black Mountain, and return home Sunday evening.

We are excited!

I'm a little familiar with Boone, but less so with Asheville. So I admit a bit of fear and trepidation. But I have 2 adventuresome girls with me and a cell phone, so we'll figure things out:)

Wish us well as we head West for "them there hills!"

Sunday, July 22, 2007

The American Tobacco Trail

Today, on a rare mild July Sunday, Skye, riding her hybrid bike, Cameron & Holly & myself, walking the pups Wyatt & Three, ventured out to enjoy a section of the Tobacco Trail just outside Apex.

The trail is constructed over an old abandoned rail bed between New Hill & Durham.
Horses, walkers, dogs, and bikers are welcome.
It's a shady sandy walkway, pleasantly, comfortably, wide enough for 3+ walkers side by side or two large horses.

This afternoon we probably covered about 2 miles North (off Wimberly Road) and then back again (approximately 1 & 1/2 hours), but the overall distance of the trail from end to end extends more than 22 miles.

Along the way I ran into a sweet friend so that was an added treat:)

I would certainly recommend this trail to any walker or biker or families biking with young kids. It is fairly rural so I would suggest exploring with a friend or two. Do bring water (and dogie bags if your dog friend is in tow) plus a cell phone in case of an emergency.

So if you're yearning to breathe in some fresh air and get some exercise, go explore one of our local 'gems', the American Tobacco Trail.
For more info go to: www.triangletrails.org

Sunday, July 15, 2007

July

July is:
hot
humid
sunny
thunderstorms
vacation time
Crepe Myrtles blooming
Mimosa's blooming
Gardenia blooms waning
Black-eyed Susan's blooming
grass turning brown/less mowing
tubing
swimming
Swim team time
beach breezes
biking
baseball season
air-conditioning on high
watermelon
fireflies
sweating doing anything outside
cranking ice cream
music concerts outside at night
iced tea
lemonade
garden lovers reap ripe vegetables
Gelato's ice cream
Goodberry's ice cream
treasured shade
PEACHES are ripe!

A Pet Peeve

One of my biggest irritations in the past few years is getting these emails that say "you know you're getting older when", or something to that affect:(
Or, "remember when..?"

I'm one of those people who don't mind telling my age, or mind getting older. Actually I'm very thankful for every day:)! But, at the same time, I don't 'feel' older than my 20 year old daughter (unless I've worked on my feet 5 days in a row!). I'm in better shape than I was years ago. I walk every day and having started running a little. Skye & I are on Weight Watcher's & losing weight & hopefully will keep at it.

I still find it strange to see a silver-haired lady staring back at me as I glance in a mirror in a department store. Will that ever go away?

Most ladies in mid life dye their hair. I toy with that idea, but haven't done it yet. I'm really going for the platinum look, like Marilyn Monroe's--ha, ha:) Seriously, I try to stay fashionably up to date but the hair color is time, fuss and expensive.

So, to those dear, sweet, friends who love to forward things, don't send me those emails:) I'll just delete them and thank the Lord I'm the age I am:)!

Saturday, July 07, 2007

A sweet birthday

Today I spent a few hours with a dear friend, her two daughters, & her mom & mother in law, celebrating her upcoming birthday at the "local" tea room, The Pineapple Tea Room.

It's a tiny, comfy, shop filled with various & sundry items associated with tea. Towards the back a few intimate tables are set up to welcome tea partakers. We visited and chit-chatted for a time, then Lisa opened her gifts, as we waited for our own special orders of tea; apple mango, orange, light melon, strawberry, Earl Grey, pineapple, etc. After our tea arrived, delicate cucumber sandwiches, scones, and pastries soon followed, served on pretty white three-tiered platters:) Everything was delicious:)

I felt honored to share such a special time with three generations of Lisa's family:) She lives 24/7 with a chronic disease. Eating out with family and friends is one of her splurges/joys in life. This afternoon was a brief respite to savor a happy time together & to celebrate having Lisa in our lives:)

A sweet time, a sweet memory, a sweet birthday tea:)

Saturday, June 30, 2007

The Fourth of July

This coming week we celebrate the Fourth of July, our nation's birthday.

Growing up the Fourth meant the biggest celebration of the year in our small town of Aberdeen, NC, located along the Norfolk/Southern railroad line & next door to Southern Pines. My uncle, editor of the local paper and Speaker of the House in the '60's, came up with the idea & was a proud supporter of the festivities, helping in organizing and carrying out the day long activities.

A huge parade through the small business district began mid morning & was followed by speeches given by the mayor, the Jaycee's, & local politicians, and usually Miss N.C. would appear. Then games of all sorts, including horseshoes, sack races, a greasy pole contest, tennis, and so forth, would commence next to Aberdeen Lake & continue through the afternoon. Refreshments galore were available; hot dogs, cotton candy, drinks, ice cream, etc. In the evening, along with a street dance, the Miss Aberdeen pageant would be held at the nearby school, and for the finale, as everyone congregated by the lake once again, fireworks were set off over the lake, bursting into diamonds & sparkles & glitter, sealing a grand day of community fun & revelry.
We came & stayed all day & into the evening:)

The Aberdeen celebration has dwindled to fireworks & refreshments.
But my love for the Fourth and especially fireworks over a lake sends me to Regency here in Cary any time I can convince my family to brave the crowds.
I love the patriotic music and the sparkles in the sky:)
Our nation's birthday!
Glorious!

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Reminising this week

Thursday morning I traveled to the little white church where my mama spent her childhood & where my Stewart, Blue, Cameron, etc. ancestors are buried, Cypress. The funeral for my mama's dear friend & cousin, Sarah Black McFadyen Barnes, was being held at 11 am. For the first time I was the only representative of my family, my mama Catherene's family, and it was an eerie feeling...

Sarah Black was always part of my mama's childhood life & storytelling, and I ran into her every now and then at reunions & weddings, anniversary parties & funerals. An elegant, pretty lady, never without a twinkle of 'mischief' in her eye, always laughing & telling some tale or adventure she & "Catherene" had or had instigated.

Bagpipes led us to the graveside. I stood apart from the group, standing on my daddy's grave, as the pastor gave his final words to Sarah Black's family before lowering her casket into the ground. Two uncles & a cousin of mine are buried between my daddy's grave (& my mama's in the future) and Sarah Black's. Sadness overwhelmed me. It was the ending of an era when cousins were your neighbors and closest friends & your history was a powerful bond. The end of lifelong friendships for my mama's generation. Sadness that Mama's memory can't fathom that Sarah Black has died. Sadness that Mama doesn't know who my sister & brothers & I are anymore.

But, I came away with another adventure story. Sarah Black and Catherene were in the tobacco barn one Sunday afternoon rolling cigarettes for a trial run with smoking. Evidently Sarah Black went to light the cigarettes, & set her hair on fire! I bet neither of them ever tried cigarettes again!

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Sunday morning

Haven't written in a while. Time flies by so quickly! Today is Father's Day which promises to usher in hot weather, summertime weather. This past week seemed long & tiring but while walking this morning I realized it would be a good thing to jot down some of my blessings lately--to give me a better perspective.

Gardenia's are blooming:)
Every morning last week was cool:)
We had rain:)
My coffee tastes so good every morning:)
Wyatt LOVES his morning walk--he leaps & jumps & sniffs & greets everyone:)
My family is healthy:)
My mama didn't fall all week & I had a good visit with her Saturday morning:)
My manager Yvonne & I had a tasty (but wet) lunch in downtown Apex Wednesday:)
Peace softball ended last Tuesday but what a wonderful time we had all season:)
My friend Angela moved into her new house this week & her dad bought her a lawn mover:)
Skye & I took Wyatt to get his nails clipped & a shampoo--we walked to Target, then ate supper at Qdoba's. Wyatt had a good time. Skye & I had a good time:)
My friend Kathy & I had lunch Thursday. She is in Vt. this morning enjoying a vacation:)
My friend Lorraine is in Pa. celebrating a family wedding:) She & I met for a brief visit Tuesday:)
My friend Nancy just returned from Fla. where she attended a family wedding:)
My family is celebrating Father's Day at The Loop today:)
Seth & Skye took my garage junk to the North Wake landfill last Sat.:)
I have a new (old) cabinet for my pottery & a new bench for my bay window:)
We had rain:)
Skye watched CSI with Keith and me last night:) (Her friends are out of town:))
My friend Lou gave me good advice twice this week--she's such an encourager:)

Have a wonderful warm June week. Take comfort that God is in charge & He is good:)

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Penguin's feet

I heard about a new book just out called "Why Don't Penguin's Feet Freeze?":)
Have you ever thought about that??
Well, when the scientist explained that a penguin's feet have a unique circulation system that keeps them at a temperature just above freezing---the exact temperature he needs for his environment---I just couldn't help but praise God. He's such a god of detail & perfection, even how those cute little penguin feet can function so perfectly--whoa!
Ponder that one today!

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Writing on Peace

I haven't written in a while because of difficult events in our church family.
A gentleman who plays on the church softball team got into a scrape at a local school recently and was arrested; felt bad for all involved:( Our sweet pastor & other men were on hand to support him through the initial court proceedings & to help navigate him through the media.

A tragedy involving one of our church youth occurred this past Sunday evening. He apparently accidentally killed himself, although at first it appeared to be a suicide:( How devastating to lose a young man only 16 years old. Words fail during a dark time. This comes on the heels of a girl among our college/career age group attempting suicide a few months ago.
We all feel so helpless:(

Christians need one another, as all people do. And we need to comfort one another and forgive one another and realize we are all vunerable & weak at times. We hope and pray our sins are not on the front page, but they could be at any given time.....

The sad part is when a talented, smart boy gets involved in things that have consequences that cannot be reversed. Or a young woman cries out for help in such an extreme way. Or a man needs support during a very stressful time in his life & he may feel out of control.
We should listen to those around us, truly listen, and be there for them through thick & thin.

Our church family is made up of many strong people of faith who are sinners, no exceptions, but who know where their strength comes from.
May we never forget to pour out mercy and forgiveness and grace to others, and daily ask for the same for ourselves.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Life

"Sooner or later you figure out life is constructed specifically & brilliantly to squeeze a man into association with the Owner of heaven. It is a struggle, with labor pains & thorny landscape, bloody hands & a sweaty brow, head in hands, moments of severe loneliness & questioning, moments of ache & desire.
Life is a dance toward God..."
And the dance is not so graceful as we might want. While we glide & swing our practiced sway, God crowds our feet, bumps our toes, & scuffs our shoes. So we learn to dance with the One who made us. And it is a difficult dance to learn, because its steps are foreign."

Donald Miller/Through Painted Deserts

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Thursday

Update:
Decided to paint. Will visit my mama next Tuesday.
Cool weather and working this evening swayed me:)
Planning to turn on my new Nano (compliments of my children:)) and go for it:)
Rustic Adobe is the color of the day!

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Every week

Tomorrow do I visit my mama, or begin painting my guest room?
That is the question for me tonight.

I face the question of when to go see my mama every week......

I haven't been to her Assisted Living residence in Pinehurst for a week and a half:(
My guest room has been primed for a month or more, waiting to be painted:(

I work tomorrow evening & traveling to see/visiting Mama is exhausting.
I can't get to Pinehurst again till sometime next week.

Mama has Alzheimer's. She'll never remember what I do.
I promised her I'd do my best for her.

Gas is outrageously high:(
We can drive out to my sister's.

Maybe the answer will come in the morning.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

May/Honeysuckle

I noticed this week the honeysuckle is blooming--what a heavenly, delicious, smell to me:) It reminds me of my childhood, when my brothers and sister and I would try to eat the minute droplets of honey contained in the honeysuckle flowers. What a lot of effort for so little, but time meant nothing then, and we thought the taste was worth it:)

Years later Keith & I annually welcomed a dear, " New England Yankee", Catholic, friend who fell in love with the smell of honeysuckle and the friendliness of the South, and would plan his trips to NC in May. (BTW, he was the last Allen in the line of the famous Nathan Allen)

He loved our area so much he even tried living in Raleigh for a brief time, but he was legally blind and, in the end, Raleigh didn't offer enough mass transit for him to stay:( He died some years ago but I think of him this time of year and feel blessed to have known this good friend, George Allen.

Wonder if there's honeysuckle in Heaven? I know George would be sitting nearby:)

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Remembering a friend

Tomorrow, May 9th, is the second anniversary of a friend's death.
Bruce, a tall, soft-spoken, philosopher from Texas, died of brain cancer in 2005. My dear, dear, friend Kathy & her husband Bruce were married for over 25 years. They were one of the first couples we met when we came to Peace church. We all attended a Sunday School class taught by precious folks John & Carolyn Clark.

Dealing with such a devastating disease is exhausting for everyone, but Bruce dealt with his suffering with grace and great faith. He never complained, I mean never. His only worry was for Kathy. His last words to me were "take care of Kathy".

Bless you, Bruce. You endured to the end. We rejoice to think you'll be waiting to greet us in Heaven:)

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Mother's Day/Remembering Mama

My sister Christy wrote this recently to honor our mama who is in her 12th year of struggling with Alzheimer's.


I Miss You Mama

When the kids do something I'm so proud of,
and I want to share the joy
and sometimes even sadness with you
I still almost pick up the phone to call and tell you.

I miss you Mama....

Sometimes, I feel so alone
Like an orphan on my own.
I want you to see and to know
each grandchild and great grandchild,
How they look and how they're doing,
and my heart hurts so!

I miss you Mama....

There are others, friends and family
that help to take your place.
but let's face it,
They can really never fill your space.

I miss you Mama....

Your love of family history,
Your written words, each memory,
I treasure each word, each page,
Our Scottish heritage ingrained in me.

I miss you Mama...

You and Daddy worked so hard to teach all of us kids,
morals, values, the love of our land.
You worked hard at the post office and at home.
And gradually I began to understand.

I miss you Mama...

The gardening, raising tobacco, working the land,
We all worked together. It was in God's plan.
You were a great teacher, we learned of God's love,
We learned to always believe and have faith in our father above.

I miss you Mama...

Your sense of humor,
Laughing until you cry!
Even now in these circumstances,
It still doesn't pass you by.

I miss you Mama...

Your writings, drawings, quilts,
the women's circle, Lobelia, the "Blues",
Cypress, Roseland UMC, our homeplace "Sandrock Acres".
These things will always remind me of you.

I miss you Mama...

If I had just one more chance,
to speak to you and you could understand,
I would like to thank you for all the lessons you taught.
For putting up with my faults.
And just for you to "know" who I am again.

I miss you Mama....and I love you!
You'll always be in my heart!

Your daughter, Christy
Mother's Day 2007

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Mercy

Notes from Dr. Diane Langberg's speech at the 2007 PCA Mercy Conference:

"Suffering leaves us speechless. Speaking is necessary for healing. Christians need to give the sufferer a voice. It is redemptive.

Christians are the rescue workers of this world.
We are to bind up the broken-hearted. We are called to live & work among the 'tombs'--among 'dead people'. If we work among the 'dead', we must believe in the Resurrection & be on our knees in repentance.

Worship is our strength.

Suffering is swallowed up in God's Glory.
He uses it for His Glory. Work here turns scars into Glory.
God will use the sufferings of others to drive us to Him."

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Sorrow

This week we've seen America deep in sorrow & grief over the horrific events which occurred in Blacksburg, Va. Monday, April 16th, on the campus of Va. Tech.
Getting a grip on how tragic this has been to so many family, friends, and loved ones is a difficult thing. We try to put ourselves in their shoes, but all we can do is feel like we've been socked in the stomach & can't catch our breath. Our faith in our fellow Americans is shaken. And how do we help or reach out to those people who are struggling with mental illness or feeling betrayed by society?
I admire many of the students who acted so unselfishly and heroically as they put their lives on the line to save others.
If we look & listen, we usually catch glimpses of mercy & grace in the worst of circumstances.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

PCA Mercy Conference

This coming weekend Heather & Don, fellow Peace church family members, & I will attend a bi-annual Mercy Conference in Atlanta. It is a time of sharing ideas, receiving encouragement, and being motivated so we can return to our churches to do the same; to cast a vision to reach out & minister to the church family & throughout the community in Jesus' name through mercy. One of the stipulations which I love is that those who attend are asked go back home and institute/update/change our ministry according to the Lord's leading.

I attended 4 years ago with a group of Peace folks & we came back with the idea of partnering with a church in Southeast Raleigh, reaching cross-culturally to one that needed financial resources as well as volunteers. This has been/is a slow process, but it is a great learning experience for both of our congregations. Lots of potential here!

In 2005 another Peace group attended the Conference. The primary goal for these folks when returning was to begin a Single Mom's Ministry. Interestingly enough, some single moms had already asked our Comfort & Care ministry for a support group. One of the attendees, Cheryl, has single-handed spear-headed this important outreach, and we see that, in time & with more volunteers, it could become a vital ministry to our community.

What will the Lord have in mind this year for Peace from the Mercy Conference?

Peace has a young Senior Pastor, with a young Disciple/College & Career Pastor, & a young Youth Pastor. Peace is looking for a Pastoral Pastor & has many applicants. The church is also looking into building a new sanctuary or starting satellite churches. The times are exciting.

We need to be attuned to look & listen to where the Lord wants us to serve & what He wants us to do, & how.
I'll keep you posted:)

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Easter/The Tomb

"Come, see the place where the Lord lay," with joy and gladness. He does not lie there now. Weep, when ye see the tomb of Christ, but rejoice because it is empty. Thy sin slew him, but his divinity raised him up. Thy guilt hath murdered him, but his righteousness hath restored him. Oh! he hath burst the bonds of death, he hath ungirt the cerements of the tomb, and hath come out more than conqueror, crushing death beneath his feet. Rejoice, O Christian, for he is not there—he is risen.

"Come, see the place where the Lord lay."

Come, view the place then, with all hallowed meditation, where the Lord lay. Spend this afternoon, my beloved brethren, in meditating upon it, and very often go to Christ's grave, both to weep and to rejoice. Ye timid ones, do not be afraid to approach, for 'tis no vain thing to remember that timidity buried Christ. Faith would not have given him a funeral at all; faith would have kept him above ground, and would never have let him be buried; for it would have said, it would be useless to bury Christ if he were to rise. Fear buried him. Nicodemus, the night disciple, and Joseph of Arimathea, secretly, for fear of the Jews, went and buried him. Therefore, ye timid ones, ye may go too. Ready-to-halt, poor Fearing, and thou, Mrs. Despondency, and Much-afraid, go often there; let it be your favorite haunt, there build a tabernacle, there abide. And often say to your heart, when you are in distress and sorrow, "Come, see the place where the Lord lay."
Charles Spurgeon

Friday, March 30, 2007

Working 9-5

Well, I've finished my first week of full time work (Public Work) and I'm still standing:) I'm helping out my manager until she finds a full-time assistant.

I must say, it does give me a good idea of what the majority of women today tackle every week--whoa!! Needless to say I've done the minimum of anything at home, especially cooking!!

I am learning new computer skills: spreadsheets, financial reports, checking in merchandise, etc. I was positive I couldn't learn anything to do with numbers (& it is slow-going for me, the one who cares only for details in decorating or painting--oh my!), but my manager is the most "patient" person I know of! She is an encourager & keeps repeating instructions gently over and over, so I've been keeping 'at it':) She says mistakes are good:) I'm not sure they always are:(
But, she wants to escape from the store every now and then, so she's hoping I can get a grip on this stuff at some point:)

God does take us to the most unlikely places sometimes!

Monday, March 26, 2007

Self Control & Weight Watcher's

Skye and I have been on Weight Watcher's now for 3 weeks. Skye's lost 13 lbs. and I've lost about 8 & 1/2 lbs. It's a good feeling to have some self control, and it's good to do this diet together. Some days it's very hard work, other days it's not as hard.
But every day is one step closer to our goal!!
We live by points & prayer!!

Saturday, March 24, 2007

This & That

1. Go UNC--they pulled out an exciting win over USC last night!! Go ACC!!!

2. Wyatt, our basset puppy, is a lover---loves his neck & chest rubbed and wants to be touching one of us at all times if possible! And has the house-training down pat 99% of the time:)

3. I haven't gotten the hang of working 9-5 yet:( Having trouble on weekends figuring out where to start with my home job! And meals---my family hasn't seen many of those, I'm afraid:( My hope is that it'll be 4 days most weeks for the duration (whatever that is). My manager is also teaching me her job so she can escape now and then. The question is: will my mind grasp these things? I am an "artsy" person, not a detail person:( Whoa, a challenge!

4. Our lovely, sweet Kelley had a birthday yesterday and is looking around the corner at a new decade in her life. It's a neat time, one of plans for a house in the next few years, possibly starting a family in the next few years, and maybe just beginning a new career?:) Go Kelley girl!!

Friday, March 16, 2007

Rose

Rose came to us from Oregon, a land far away. She was quiet and unassuming, a slender lady with dark hair and a big smile. She needed work and had experience. She was hired as our assistant manager. Quietly, diligently, she worked and slowly, gradually, revealed to us her love of animals and gardening and Vera and stuffed animals and, most of all, her newest love----her baby granddaughter:)

In 2006 she & her husband Jerry decided to move across the country to be close to their only son, his wife and baby. Their son had moved his family to our area, the 'land of opportunity', for more job security and informed Rose and Jerry a year ago they were planning to make their home here. They invited them to come. So they did.

Those of us who worked with Rose grew to love her. She would share her life any time we had the opportunity and every day we saw her humbleness and sweet spirit.

This week we had to say goodbye after such a short time together, only about 6 months. She has been asked to be a manager at one of the Cary stores. We are excited for her, happy for her, but will miss her terribly!

How sweet to rub shoulders for a time with dear Rose. Her demeaner taught us much. She'll always be part of 'us', her first 'working family' in NC:)
Enjoy your next family, Rose:) We're cheering you on!

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Self control

Skye & I have embarked on the "Weight Watcher's" journey once again.
The last time we signed up Keith lost his job, our Charlie-dog died, and my mama had to be moved into an assisted living home against her wishes---three huge stresses/griefs in our lives:(!! After a while we fizzled out:(
As of Monday night we're trying again:)

Having self control is gratifying.
I pray for it over and over. But evidently we must take the initiative at some point in time and work at it since it doesn't seem to overtake us instantly!

Doing this together gives us strength & encouragement.
We're a team.
Wish us well.

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Pondering

I turn the corner and no birds.
Silence.
I've moved some metal shelves into the spot where their cage sat.
No whistles.
No singing.
How long to get used to that?

Then I hear the pitter-pat of big puppy paws coming around the bend.
And it comforts me:)

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Peace & Quiet

Well, yesterday I took Alfie, my surviving cockatiel, to my sister's house in Aberdeen. My brother in law has a family relation who wants a bird and is very excited about getting a bird--she's just retired and will dote on him:) I am pleased:)

Alfie was my niece's bird until she left home last summer and couldn't take him with her. I thought Skyebird would enjoy a companion. They seemed to exist peacefully together. I think Alfie liked Skyebird better than Skyebird liked him.

After Skyebird passed away a few weeks ago, Alfie seemed to be okay, although he never sat on Skyebird's side of the cage, and every now and then, he'd screech like Skyebird. Once in a while he'd sound like he was fighting with himself--weird.
He loved singing to his mirror:)
I had placed a songbird clock above the cage long before Alfie arrived. Skyebird ignored it. Alfie emulated it--he could do every song!! Skyebird was a grump (to everyone but me), but Alfie would sing to anyone; he'd even wake up singing:)
Such a cheerful fella!

So the singing we will miss. He was a happy camper during his brief stay with us:) And now our house is so quiet!
Happy trails to Alfie.

Friday, February 23, 2007

A puppy day!

I'm working yesterday and got a call from Skye. She was really upset. She came home from class and found our "precious speckled puppy", Wyatt, had chewed up my Ipod & headphones and two sheets of stamps; guess he's not a music fan or a snail-mail fan:(!!
But my Ipod:(!!!
Good grief and googa-mooga!
A day in the life of a puppy left to entertain himself for a few hours!!
Go ahead and laugh. It'll be a funny story to me.......later!

Saturday, February 17, 2007

A crisis

Today our church's Comfort & Care ministry hosted a workshop "How to Love and Minister to Those With Mental Health Issues ".
We heard that people in Wake County with mental health issues are facing a world with few places to turn when the two Wake Mental Health Centers, one of which is Dix Hospital, close in the near future.
And insurance companies do not cover mental health crisis, or if they do, it's only a token amount.
NAMI, a national organization for the support of mental illness, is trying to change things.

What is the role of the Church in this crisis? How are Christians called to comfort and care for these people who sometimes don't realize they have a problem, who may not be easy to love? How can the families be supported and ministered to? Somehow Churches need to be safe and welcoming places for people who struggle with mental issues. Will Churches take the initiative to offer 'caring centers for the mentally ill' in the future? Things to wrestle with.....and ponder and pray about.

Mental illness has a negative connotation even here in 2007. Fear of the unknown is the primary reason. We need to listen and learn from one another--and be willing to step out in faith and love in order to break down the walls.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Valentine's Dilema

A sure sign that our community is growing in leaps and bounds: No kid's boxed Valentine's were to be found as of last night in the Apex area. Procrastinating parents and students were left to cut, draw, stamp, and sticker their own cards!

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Rambling about Recycling

If you know me well, you know recycling is important to me. I'm not a fanatic but could be if I had time or energy, or another lifetime to campaign, apply for grants, etc.

When Keith & I were newly-marrieds back in 1969-73 we lived in beautiful upstate NY where Ulster County towns were beginning to recycle on-site at the landfills. The small towns recruited volunteers to come and sort glass and aluminum into separate bins. These removable bins were placed in permanent concrete pits in the ground. Our church youth group, with the 2 of us as their fearless leaders, would spend a Saturday a month at the local dump, literally going through garbage uncovering green, blue, and clear glass, as well as aluminum cans! I must say it was an dirty experience but we felt like we were making a difference in our small part of the world.

We moved back to NC in '74, to Raleigh briefly(no recycling), then bought a house in Cary. Cary recycled--yeh! Not enough, but it was a beginning. The town did improve their program as time passed and now has an active recycling program:) In '87 we moved to Apex, where they have followed in Cary's footsteps:)

In 2005 I began working at a small office in Raleigh, and after naively calling the City Dept. of Works to get a recycling bin, found out that businesses did not recycle:( I was shocked! Businesses are the biggest producers of trash:( So I took our recyclable items home to Apex.

I started a new job in Apex at Hallmark in 2006, a job I enjoy. You can imagine how much Hallmark ships in, countless items in countless boxes packaged in plastic and the dreaded styrofoam---ugh:( In our company's defense, I am thankful they do recycle cardboard! Hurray:) But not the styrofoam:( Styrofoam flakes, shreds, clings, sticks to everything, fills up our trashbags and the landfills and will never disintegrate:( How bad is that! We need to ban the creation of it or send it all to the sun!! I read in the N&0 recently a researcher has come up with a styrofoam that does begin to break down in 6 months---now that excites me!

Now, for the plastic bags....
And the litter along the roads....
And abandoned shopping carts in Raleigh, and so on and so on.
We are the stewards of this Earth.

Monday, February 05, 2007

Chilly

Did I say not long ago, and more than once, I was hoping for some cold weather, that it would be a good thing? I forgot to mention I'd vote for no wind (no chill factor) with that Northern Canadian air! Very important.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

In Memory

My Skybird died during the night.
He seemed fine yesterday.
Many will be happy, including my husband and children. In their defense they haven't shouted with joy in front of me so far.

He was a big presence in our house, a handsome cockatiel with a beautiful yellow head and orange cheeks, and a sleek gray body with white-tipped wings. My friend Vicki gave him to me 3 years ago. It took him almost a year to trust me, and eventually he even let me stroke his head and would perch on my shower door where, two or three times, he allowed me to put him in the shower water. He didn't like it at all:(

But his primary job (and annoyance): he screeched, welcoming me home, beginning when he heard my car until he saw me! At the same time, he would screech at the rest of my family when they came within sight (I believe) because they were taking my attention away from him. He never made friends with Keith or Skye; he was just feisty!
He was totally devoted to me and only me.

I brought home my niece's cockatiel, Alfie, last summer and I think they were company for one another. Alfie's an upbeat bird, likes to sing, and can imitate almost any songbird on the bird clock nearby. Skybird would only sing if you worked at coaxing him. Skyegirl was good at getting him to sing now and then:)

On this windy, chilly February afternoon Keith and I buried him in the back yard, within sight out the kitchen bay window. A gray rock marks his grave.

Vicki and I think he was about 8 years old; she had hand-raised him from a baby.
Skybird will be long remembered, a testimony to how loyal and devoted a pretty bird can be.
May he rest in peace.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

February

February 2007 is already here! Amazing!
For snow lovers and winter lovers, it's the hope of beautiful white snow and weather cold enough to kill bugs. Disheartening to me to hear that the groundhog predicts only 6 more weeks of winter--ugh. Summer will all too soon be upon us, with unrelenting heat:(
We did have a brief moment of snow as February arrived Thursday:) It didn't stay, but what a pretty snowfall it was, very peaceful, and what a nice vacation day it was for many:(

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Books

These are the books stacked on my nightstand, beside my bed, that I am reading, am in the process of reading gradually, or are to be read:

1. A Breach of Promise, by Anne Perry; am reading now, a mystery!
2. Heaven, by Randy Alcorn; read a little every now and then, a lot to process, but an amazing, powerful book!
3. The Purpose-Driven Life, by Rick Warren; have not finished.
4. God and George W. Bush, by Paul Kengor; only read a third--too dry, but hope to perservere.
5. Chicken Soup for the Caregiver's Soul, by Jack Canfield, Mark Hansen, LeAnn Thieman; read now and again.
6. Ministries of Mercy, by Timothy Keller; read 3/4ths, excellent, but slow going as he gets into practical set-ups at the end.
7. The Screwtape Letters, by C.S. Lewis; had book for years and want to read--just waiting in line!
8. When I Don't Desire God, by John Piper; to be read.
9. Jungle Pilot, by Russell T.Hitt; to be read.
10. Through Painted Deserts, by Donald Miller; to be read.

Books I received as gifts at Christmas, waiting to be read!

11. The Handmaid and the Carpenter, by Elizabeth Berg.
12. Happiness Sold Separately, by Lolly Winston.
13. Miracles, by C.S. Lewis.
14. The Four Love, by C.S. Lewis.
15. The Problem of Pain, by C.S. Lewis.
16. The Years of Pleasure, by Elizabeth Berg.
17. Digging To America, by Anne Tyler.

One that Keith's sister gave him for Christmas, which he's passing on to me:
18. We Die Alone, by David Howarth.

A good literary start to 2007! My job: to finish the unfinished, and read those that are beside me, beckoning to me!

Saturday, January 27, 2007

A warm January day

Traveled to Pinehurst & Vass today:

1. Excited to see roadside clean-up along US1 South, which is usually a mess!
2. Met my sister, brother in law, in Aberdeen, who drove to Cypress Presbyterian Church along with Mama & me. Enjoyed seeing numerous horse farms:)
3. Put silk flowers on Daddy's tombstone(his 90th birthday was January 21st).
4. Mama didn't seem to recognize her home church, always one of her favorite places.
5. Afterwards went by Mama's Kitchen in Vass for lunch, but they don't open till 4pm:( Was one of Mama and Daddy's favorite places to eat.
6. Ate at John's Barbecue. We all had fish or oysters--love their seafood:)
7. Talked to staff at Carolina House about Mama's new drug Depakote. The Tech thinks it is a combination of two drugs that's making her groggy, so she will fax her Dr.
8. Found gas for $2.07:)

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Seabiscuit

I'm watching Seabiscuit, one of my favorite movies. I read the book (which was well-written) and saw the movie in the theater. It's a film I love watching again and again. Both are based on a true story, which is always appealing to me--real life is wonderfully interesting! Add a magnificent horse that captures your heart and an ending that is a tear-jerker. The director & the writer created a work of art for the eyes and the emotions:)

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Friends/snow/sleet/rain

Nothing like spending time with dear friends.
Today the snow/rain/sleet sent me to the Mall to walk with longtime friends Jeannette & Lorraine. I used to walk with them almost every day inside the Mall, but since I've discovered Apex's Lake Pine walkway, I prefer getting my exercise there, outside:)
On our route today we ran into a fellow walking buddy from our past. We stopped a few minutes to say hey to Beth & her grown son David!:) Wonderful to see them:)
We continued on, walking, talking, and finally bargain shopping before heading to Panera's for soup. My good friend Carol works at Chico's. She graciously welcomed us in and waited on us:)
A perfect way to spend a wintry afternoon, walking with friends, running into friends, and being helped by a friend:)

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Ipod music list

My current music selection:
Red Mountain Music, 2 CD's
Bill Leslie's Peace Like a River
Jerry & Lisa Read Smith's dulcimer/flute music
Still listening to Charlie Brown's Christmas soundtrack
Still listening to The Chieftian's Christmas music
Still listening to Mannheim Steamroller's Christmas music
Alison Krauss & Yo-Yo Ma's lullaby duet
Other Alison Krauss selections
Vince Gill selections
Amy Grant selections
Alan Jackson's Where Were You?
ZZ Top's Leg's, Well-Dressed Man, Give Me All Your Lovin'
Robert Palmer's Addicted To Love
Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young
Lee Greenwood's Dixie & The Battle Hymn Of The Republic
Willie Nelson's Pancho and Lefty
A few Beatles' songs
Billy Ray Cyrus' Achy Breaky Heart
James Taylor's Sweet Baby James & Carolina On My Mind
The Beach Boys' And Then I Kissed Her
Eddie Cochran's Summertime Blues
Starship's We Built This City
Phil Collins' True Colors
Neil Diamond's Sweet Caroline, Holly Holy
From Born To Worship, Jesus I Am Resting, Resting
Norm Greenbaun's Spirit In The Sky
The Everly Brothers
The Righteous Brothers
Kathy Mattea
Doc Watson
Bruce Cockburn
Jimmy Buffet's Come Monday
Nitty Gritty Dirt Band
The Moody Blues
Mark Knopler & Emmylou Harris
The Bee Gees
John Denver
Cat Stevens
Vonda Shepherd

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Wyatt 'Burp'

Well, well, as of January 6th we have a new member of the family.
Wyatt, a year old (January 10th) tri-colored Basset & a Texas boy. Coming from a broken relationship he has found his way to us. He's a puppy for sure--so far he's destroyed a rubber ball, an ornament, a tough-looking chew toy, a huge bone, & grabbed every stuffed animal within sight, & he's only been here a day & a half!! He seems to love a good "pack howl" too, which we happily instigate every now and then:) Now if we can get an eating schedule & the house-training to kick in, we'll be on a roll:) Looking forward to an adventure with this fella:)
And he does have a wallop of a burp, Mr. Wyatt!